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LargeInCharge Magazine - Eight Years & Going Strong!

 Issue#101- August 2012

Welcome to LargeInCharge Magazine

In this Issue of L.I.C.




Words of Wisdom from the Heart & Mind of Raqui


Good 4 U Food  ~ Xander


The Big GB My Gastric Bypass Memoirs 

Soyna Bennett and Angie Bee


From the Desk of NAAFA

National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance


Fashion & Products with The WebGirl ~ Lucia Roth


Fattitude - Its a Fat way of Life ~ Pat Llewellyn


The BIG - Beautiful Inspirational Girl  ~ Ms Suga


Big Girl, Small World - Gabriela Falarz


Dating Survival for Today's Woman

Kathy Hernandez


The Observer - Jness


LargeInChargeDating - Dating for the Large People who are going to be in Charge of their Love Lives!


LargeInCharge Friends - The Place for Big People to make Friends and maybe MUCH MORE!

Large Sized Olympic Stars!

Large Sized Olympic Stars!

By: Raqui

In honor of our 100th Anniversary Edition of LargeInCharge Magazine we want to honor and give love to some amazing large sized people who have shown that there extra bulk (whether a little or a lot) is an not something that would stop them from not only setting goals and working hard.  But never giving up and taking there dream further and earning OLYMPIC STATUS!

They have trained, put there blood sweat and tears into there chosen sport, showing that those over single digits sizes can be physical super stars.  Lets give love to these amazing OLYMPIC CONTENDERS!

Aretha Thurmond competes during the women's discus throw finals at the U.S. Olympic Track and Field Trials Sunday, June 24, 2012, in Eugene, Ore.

(AP Photo/Matt Slocum) Photo: Associated Press / SA

Women’s Discus Throw
Reese Hoffa reacts after wining the men's shot put finals at the U.S. Olympic Track and Field Trials Sunday, June 24, 2012, in Eugene, Ore.

(AP Photo/Charlie Riedel) Photo: Associated Press / SA

Men's Shot
Jill Camarena-Williams won the women's shot put with a throw of 62 feet, 10 1/2 inches during Friday's U.S. Olympic track and field trials at Hayward Field in Eugene.

Women's Shot
Sarah Robles successfully snatches 114 kilograms during the 2012 U.S. Olympic Team Trials for Women's Weightlifting on March 4, 2012 in Columbus, Ohio.

Sarah Roble celebrates being named to the U.S. Women's Weightlifting Olympic Team during the 2012 U.S. Olympic Team Trials for Women's Weightlifting on March 4, 2012 in Columbus, Ohio.
Damon Kelly will represent Australia at the 2012 Olympic Games in London after
impressive performances at the final weightlifting selection trial.

For Queensland's Kelly, who travelled to the 2008 Olympics in Beijing, he is focused on
improving his performance in China.

"Beijing was a career highlight and a great experience," said Kelly, the 2010 gold
medallist in the 105kg+ division at the Commonwealth Games in New Delhi.

Kelly wants to lift 400kg for the clean and jerk, and snatch, after hoisting 397kg in New
Delhi, a Commonwealth Games record.

The younger sister of New York Jets Pro-Bowl center Nick Mangold, Holley is a contender in the superheavyweight division. At 330 pounds, she has never been self-conscious about her size. “I love my body,” she says. “I’ve always been confident…I always tell everyone, ‘thank God I wasn’t skinny.’ Because God knows how cocky and terrible I’d be.”

Holley Mangold celebrates being named to the U.S. Women's Weightlifting Olympic Team during the 2012 U.S. Olympic Team Trials for Women's Weightlifting on March 4, 2012 in Columbus, Ohio.




Featured Interview


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  Michelle Swan!



Cover Model Interview What is your name?

My name is Michelle Swan. Where are you from and what is your current Location?

 I was born in Watsonville, California. I moved to a small town in Northern California called Cottonwood when I was eight yeas old and have lived in the area pretty much all of my life. Can you give us some information about yourself (Age, Height, Size, Nationality, Marital Status, Children, etc.)? 

I am 42 years old. I am 5 foot 5 inches tall and I weigh about 260 pounds. I wear a size 24. My nationality is Blackfoot Indian. I am married to my wonderful husband David. We’ve been together for seven years married for three. The two of us have been raising my son Daryll. He was 12 when we met and now has grown into a wonderful young man. I have been a single mother for most of his life, so he really appreciates having a father in his life. I love most animals and would probably have a zoo if I didn’t have to clean up after everything. I love the ocean. I love to travel to the Northern California or Oregon Coastline as often as possible. I am a social-bug. I am a little shy at first, but warm up easily. My poor husband is pretty much a recluse, but is slowly warming up to people as long as it’s not too many at once. I am a Christian woman who believes in God and I believe I have been blessed in my life. Were you a big child, or did you gain weight later in life?

In elementary school I used to love to run so I stayed thin. In high school I wasn’t able to run as much so I started to gain the weight. My senior year I was 160 lbs. My weight went up, as I got older. When I had my son I reached 220 lbs. Once I had him I was able to get down to 170 lbs by riding a bike to and from work because I didn’t own a car. Now I am not very active and stay home a lot, so my weight now ranges between 250 lbs. and 260 lbs. (If you were a big child) how did you feel growing up as a large child?

In high school I was teased a lot. Showering in P.E. was the hardest of all. I was uncomfortable showering with the other girls, because I was the largest girl in my class. I didn’t get picked for sports; people were pretty much forced to take me. I ate alone in the cafeteria and sat in the front of the classrooms. I pretty much kept to myself, but I did try to talk to the new students and befriend them until they found their own social circle to join. I didn’t believe anyone should be an outcast for any reason weather it be for his or her weight or if they were new to school. (If you gained weight later in life) what caused you to gain weight and how did you feel about it?

I’ve been heavy most of my life, but the reason I gained weight is having jobs that didn’t require a lot of moving around. When I worked in fast food and department stores I moved around more and was able to lose the weight. When I take care of people, there isn’t as much physical work and I tend to gain weight instead of losing it. What made you decide to enter the LargeInCharge model search? 

I’ve always had a real problem with self-confidence. I could never see myself as beautiful while being big. I just thought that maybe my story could help someone else’s self-confidence. Just because you may be big doesn’t mean you aren’t beautiful. Did you find it a hard journey to be accepted by others at your size?

Oh yes. I still do. The area I live in doesn’t accept large people. I live in a country town, and heavy people are considered lazy people. Dating was tough too. If I put a full-body picture on the dating sites, I didn’t get any replies. Do you find it a hard to accept yourself as a Plus Sized Person?

I have finally accepted it. Before it was depressing because it’s really hard to find nice clothes in large sizes. Now we actually have more options for clothing. Growing up I felt like I was the only plus sized person in the world. Now, I see that I am not.  I also have a husband and friends who accepts me as I am, that helps a lot. Do you find acceptance among your family and friends?

Yes I do. The people I associate with accept me the way I am and remind me that I am a beautiful person when I am insecure. I have a lot of supportive people in my life. What would you say inspires you most in life?

I am a caring person. I love to help others. Most of my adult life I have had care providing roles. I’ve worked with people with developmental disabilities, people with Cerebral Palsy, and children with Autism. I have always been the type of person who would do anything they could to help another person. I love to have people over for dinner. My family lovingly calls me a “food-pusher” because I always offer food whenever people come over. I just love cooking for people. What is your primary occupation?

My primary occupation is taking care of my mother. She lives with my family and myself now because she has had several strokes and the last one she has left her unable to take care of herself. She has been there for me all my life and it’s my turn to be there for her. How did you get into this line of work?

I’ve just been the type of person to want to help others. If someone needs help, I am there for him or her. I’ve even been known to be standing in line at the grocery store and start helping an elderly person ahead of me put his/her groceries on the grocery belt. Sometimes I think I am little too helpful and I worry about offending people, but it’s just the way I am. Do you find acceptance in the work force?

In the areas of work that I have worked in I have been accepted the way that I am. People look at my willingness to work over my size. What changes do you believe should take place for Large People in the work force?

I think that we should be treated the same as everyone else. Don’t point us out as “Large People”, just let us be ourselves…NORMAL.
 What do you think about the fashion industry for big sized clothing?

I think that it has gotten a lot better. I hated shopping for clothes because there weren’t any cute clothes for people my size. I remember going shopping for underclothes once and coming home extremely depressed because I couldn’t have any of the cute stuff; I could only wear the what I called the “industrial sized” and ugly, nothing lacy or pretty. Well, nowadays I’ve learned you can get cute clothes and it’s a lot more fun to shop! I look forward to buying clothes now. What do you wish to see change with the fashion industry?

I think that there should be both plus sized and regular sized models in the magazines and advertisements. Most stores have plus sized clothing, why can’t they advertise the plus size clothes along with the regular sized clothing? The fashion industry seems to favor the thinner models and smaller clothing. You shouldn’t have to go to a plus sized magazine to see plus sized models. What changes do you think will happen if plus sized modeling for men and women were to expand?

I think that plus sized people would be looked at differently. They wouldn’t be looked at as different. People would be used to seeing them. You don’t see a lot of plus sized models without looking at plus-sized magazines. They are mostly thinner. I also think that it will continue to help plus sized people to be accepted in society. Tell us some of the places you buy your clothing from.

I shop mostly at Lane Bryant; it’s my favorite place. The people there are very helpful with finding the right sizes and they are usually my size so I don’t feel uncomfortable when they help me trying on clothing. I also shop at Macys, JCPenny and Sears, but usually only online.  Tell us one of your secret beauty tips.

I don’t have any real beauty secrets, but I think that my body wash has a big part of it. I use body washes with oils in them. My skin stays soft and young looking because of it. I think your skin is an important part of your beauty.  Give us some tips on how to have a successful Photo shoot.  What should models be prepared for?

Honestly, I’ve only had one photo shoot. I was really nervous because of my self-pride issues, but I was encouraged to relax and just be myself. I did and I had a wonderful time. So, I would just encourage them to relax and enjoy the experience. Look at Size acceptance five years ago... look at size acceptance now.  What changes do you see?

More department stores are now making larger and more desirable clothing. I’ve also noticed that there are a lot of online groups that help with size acceptance nowadays. I am a member of one that helps me to feel good about myself. They are all good people. It’s also amazing how many men out there are actually interested in plus-sized women. What changes do you think will happen five years from now with size acceptance?

More and more of society are becoming overweight, so I really think that size acceptance is not going to be such a big deal; people won’t be looking at plus-sized people any different. Do you face discrimination in your daily life as a Plus Sized Person?

I get comments here and there about my size, but I don’t worry about other people’s comments either way. I accept the compliments and ignore the negative comments. I’ve also learned that if I dress nicely, people look at the clothes and not the size. Tell us about your goals as far as modeling and other interests.

I would like to try a modeling career. In my small town there aren’t many opportunities, but I know the opportunities are out there. Modeling will also help me to continue fighting my self-confidence issues as well.  What have you accomplished as a Plus Sized Model?

As I said, I am not exactly a model yet, but the photo shoot I did do made me feel good about myself and helped my self-confidence.  Have you entered or won any Contests, Pageants or Awards?  What was the experience like?

I haven’t entered any Contests, Pageants, or won any awards yet…hopefully one day I will. Can you tell us about an inspirational moment in your life that made you feel good about your size?

I would say the photo shoot that my good friend and I did.  I had my hair and make up done. I also wore a gorgeous dress. When I saw myself in the pictures, I couldn’t believe it was really me! I actually felt beautiful for the first time in my life! Is there a person in your life that keeps you going?

I have a wonderful friend named Don Eklund. He was the person I was with when I became depressed about not being able to have cute underclothes. Well, he decided that I would never feel that way again and has been by my side ever since. He has helped me learn that I am beautiful. He has helped me shop and has helped me to feel good about myself. If he wouldn’t have stepped up and helped me, I wouldn’t even be considering becoming a Cover Model.
 What advice would you give to other people of size who want to model?

Just remember no matter what size you are, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! There are lots of opportunities out there for us nowadays and there are people out there that appreciate our size. Just love yourself and everyone else will love you too. What plus size figure do you most admire?

I admire Queen Latifah. She is a plus sized lady and she is a strong woman. She can act really well and I doubt she will take any grief from anyone. She is also very beautiful. Describe yourself with one word.




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Cover Model of the Month



     Raqui the Owner and Founder of, Raqui's  "Tell it like it is" style of writing has brought thousands to her blogs and millions to  There is so much behind the woman who has brought this magazine into existence.  Being Internationally known as a wrestler/squasher lead the way to modeling for companies and being featured in magazines and documentaries from all over the world.  She has made a career out of her size and personality. Born, Raised in the Bronx NYC. This city girl is taking the world by storm.


     For the past 8 years Raqui officially moved into Size Acceptance and Empowerment.  With the creation of LargeInCharge she took what she said to individuals to a higher level and made it public to the internet world. She is a woman who doesn't let things get to her.  Knock her down for the moment but she will rise up stronger and better.  Being a speaker on behalf of many subjects and counseling Plus Sized people online her grace and style has made people love her.  Raqui continues to set an example of a powerful woman who will bend the world to fit her, her way.


     Raqui's appearances include, Uk Television, German TV, Japan, Europe, Sweden and the Spanish circuit.  Her many magazines appearances have been world wide.  She has hit American Television in 2006 with Good Morning American and since has appeared on The Cristina Show,  The Maury Show and The Tyra Banks Show.

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Raqui's New Blog titled Raqui-ism "Soulfully Speaking! -

 Raqui Host's Seminar at 16th Annual Vegas Bash 2012

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Raqui-ism - When Someone you Love Dies

Written By: Raqui


This topic is one I am familiar with.  Having lost my husband eleven years ago, having been there for others, during their losses.  I understand the pain you feel and how living after the loss of a loved one’s life is hard… harder than some think.


Some people just ignore the feelings and fill themselves with anything and everything they can, to distract from facing the pain.  Some of us try to stay strong through the mixed emotions, until we have small break downs, usually in private away from others.  Then some just break down deeply, and hard, it seems like recovery would take a miracle, and we sometimes wonder will they follow their loved one? 

First off... there is no wrong way to mourn the loss of a loved one.  But you must mourn, and face the feelings at sometime, even if we mourn as we go.  We must also keep living, and that can be hard for some of us to even think of or realize.

Mourn as we go is a term taught to me by a good friend.  One of my best friends actually, I called her Dee and she passed away this past month July 16th 2012.  We started calling each other sisters, everyone else did, it didn’t matter that we looked nothing a-like or we talked differently.  We both were big women and instantly people saw us as family.  While we may not have been blood relatives we were Soul Sisters.  We shared so much about our lives and feelings, we agreed to disagree on a lot of stuff but we still talked about it, and made our jokes, and crazy remarks.   We laughed a lot, and told lots of stories, we were both widows, and I was there for her during her loss.  That brought back many feelings for me, and we were able to relate well since I understood what she was going through. Neither one of us thought we would marry again, so we had a little agreement.  We would hang out and have adventures, be fat, drink and be merry.  Live life as fully as we could and have a good time all the way.  I would make sure she didn’t turn into the crazy cat lady, and she would make sure I didn’t turn into the smelly pee lady.

Mourn as you go was something we spoke about.  I was totally devastated when my husband died, it was a shock.  Dee’s hubby was very sick and his death was one that was coming, but still we all thought there was going to be more time. In the end we all knew his suffering came to an end, so it was a bitter sweet mourning.  Thankful that his suffering ended, but yet sad all the same and that they (as a couple) didn’t get to have that grow old together feeling.  Many things felt like life cheated the family out of a great man, husband and father.  But still everyone knew he was better off in the next realm. It was hard, and mourning as she went, and teaching her children to mourn as they went, was helpful in many ways.

For some reason... people tend to rush the mourning process as if losing a loved one is not a full change in life.  You have a whole part of you missing when you lose that person.  Sometimes there are positive things when someone passes (if they were sick, hurting others, if they were not at rest, mentally stressed or strained to the point of disruption) but always the feeling of loss is negative, and hurtful.  Those mixed feelings are hard to deal with, a lot of people don’t understand that death is something that sometimes needs to happen, and you can feel many different ways about the death of a particular person, yet still have a hole in your heart for them. Mourn as you go is the art of releasing emotions as they come, even taking the time to mourn and release in positive ways.  Laughing and smiling sharing stories, crying and leaning on another (allowing yourself to feel vulnerable and protected), thinking about the good times, the bad, and the sad, feeling lonely and hurt, yet still celebrating the time you had with them.

Mourning is not an exact science and there is no time limit on it either.  Some people tend to believe that after a certain time period you should be over it already.  They have no idea how to mourn.

First off losing a loved one is a permanent situation.  Once you lose you cannot get it back, there is no replacement that will heal that missing part of you.  I personally use this example to explain losing someone you love.  If you lose a hand, arm, leg, your sight, hearing, sense of smell etc.  Life will never be the same, you keep living but you live differently.  You adapt to the loss of your senses or to the loss of a body part.   You don’t do things exactly the same anymore but you keep going.  That is what losing someone you love is like, you adapt to life without them, life will not be the same and you will always remember life before the loss, you just keep living and adapt.

Every loss will be different and your feelings and emotions will develop differently.  That doesn’t mean the loss of one person is worse than another, it is different and you deal with it differently.  But you must deal, and you must mourn, and you must go on.  We shouldn’t be ashamed of mourning; it is part of moving forward after loss.  We should see it almost as a celebration, to love someone so much that they affect our lives deeply.  We must see some joy in that pain, because we have to have been very happy to be so sad.  It is all up to the individual on how you mourn but I have found mourning as I go to help me in many ways.   Not being ashamed of my emotions and living and mourning in the moment has brought out my humanity and allowed me to share myself with others during a hard time in my life.


I stopped asking why, I stopped thinking what if, I realized I was blessed to have such a special friend who became my sister and had to go on to the other life, the best life after this one.  I will mourn as I go and never forget how much she meant to me.  Why would I want to forget?


With Love Raqui


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     Xander brings blend of life experience and culinary twist to his writing. From cooking on television and live demonstrations, to writing Xander cook’s like he feels. A former Chicago native transplanted to Tennessee, His goal has been to experience the fullness of food heritage. He believes that as a people and society, can learn a lot from what we eat. Combining a great life lesson and a easy recipe.  They go hand-in-hand to provide a tasty addition to your day. Xander has to confess that ingredients in a great meal are like the ingredients in a great life are never far apart.



The Will to act is the Ability to Change

by Xander The Food Dude


Over the last eight (almost nine) months I have been involved with the care of my mother.  She had four strokes in less than a three months span.  As I look back at the months as they have seemed to pass in a heartbeat of time, I finally have reached a point that I think I can see some of the lessons that have been taught to be by some celestial force in the universe.  I wanted to take this opportunity to cover the first few in this article and continue with more in next months.  While I can’t claim that all of these lesson would be the same for everyone in my situation, I can say with some level of confidence that all of these lessons are good lessons with application whether you’re in my situation or not.

Lesson #1

It’s alright to be scared.

I can honestly say that for a while fear became my journeyman in this effort in caring for my mother.  I had more fears about more than things than there are stars in the universe.  I feared everything all coming from the feeling of inadequacy in being a good caregiver to my mother.  I felt bad that I feared everything.   While it may seem to be a generality is saying that I feared everything, I really did.  Family and friends have been supportive, giving words of praise, but it did nothing to alleviate my concerns.   It felt and sometimes feels as though everything is way out of my control.  The solution is this:  acknowledge that it’s true that most things are out of our control.  This is not a defeatist statement but rather a statement of fact.  I had to focus on the few things I can control, and take ownership of those.  Most of these revolve around schedules, content of moments and simply being prepared.  While we can never be prepared for every possibility, we can reflect on potential happens and at least have a plan.  It’s alright to be scared, but you can’t let that fear stop you from moving.

Lesson #2

The Will To Act

This may be more of a Lesson 1.5 because it ties in so heavily with Lesson 1.  Facing fear and uncertainty with a plan is not enough.  At this point it is necessary to reach deep within yourself and resolve that you need to do something.  For me, it was to take a step, to learn more, to dive into those things that I never thought I could or wanted to do, and just do it.  A plan, a goal, and objective, without intent, without the will to act is nothing but wasted energy.  You can have a glorious plan that they world is sunshine and everyone is happy, healthy, and rich, but life simply doesn’t work that way.  I have a friend who is a pastor and he puts it this way.  “God gave us free will for a reason.  It allows us to choose right from wrong, good and bad, and to take ownership of those decision whatever the outcome.  Without free will we are simply slaves.”  He went on further to explain that less and and less in society are people willing to make a decision and face the consequences for the good or bad of those decision.  Step on to deciding what tomorrow is going to look is having the will to act on circumstances of today.

Lesson #3

Take the Help

When I started this journey I was dead set on providing everything my mother needed.  I was the only one who was going to be responsible for her care.  In a very short time I learned that I was not enough to meet the needs of my mother.  The worst part of it was that because I couldn’t meet all her needs (as a son should) I had overwhelming bought of depression.  Through other providers I have learned that in situations of care giving, no one is enough.  However, there are people out there who are willing and able to help, it’s part of their life calling and they give freely.  I had to learn that it doesn’t make me weak to accept help, more it the need to focus on making sure my mother’s needs are met.  This is case where we have to acknowledge that we cannot and are not the focus, its other people.  Everyone needs help from time to time in their lives, it nothing to be ashamed of or to feel less about.  Perhaps the next most important part of getting help is to pay it back when you’re able.  For me, at some point I intend on volunteering at food kitchens or even the nursing home who took such good care of my mother.  I’ve also found that taking the perspective of paying it back helps to alleviate some of my guilt for needing the help.

Lesson #4

The Next Great Moment

I’ve learned that in time of Joy you need to live in that moment as if it was your last.  In times of strife and pain, you need to work hard to acknowledge that just around the corner could be the next great moment.  The important thing to know is that if you get bogged down and focus purely on that pain, that’s where you’ll always stay… in pain.  When my mother got out of the nursing home, I was terrified of taking care of her (now I’ve worked my way up to simply being paranoid all the time).  I had her home for two weeks and she went back into the hospital.  Two days at home, back into the hospital she went.  We hit a major home run, when she made it to three weeks at home, then she had to go back into the hospital.  Through all of the incidents it seemed like things were not getting any better and in some cases they got worse.  This last Sunday morning I was getting my mother out of bed, when it seemed like her leg moved (this being the leg that had no motion for the last eight months).  I had many times in the past thought I had seen motion only to try it again and again to no avail.  This last Sunday morning I tried again.  “Mom, move your leg”.  There was a slight twitching in her upper leg muscle and then her lower leg muscle.  Bit by bit the leg started to rise.  I almost broke down crying.  I reset the leg.. “Do it again”,  again the leg moved.  Do it again I repeated over and over.  Again and again her leg would move.  I videotaped it.  I was riding on such a high that day.  The next morning I threw back the covers, straightened out her leg.  Do it again mom.  Nothing happened.  I would stretch her leg over and over, still no movement. Today we simply had movement in her toes.  While I would prefer that she had movement in her leg every day I know that recovery is a very slow process.  But I hang on to the fact that she did move it which means she will be able to move it again.  I hang on to the videotape to remind myself of a great moment and I now know that I’m just working to the next great moment.  Its all there waiting for me and my mother to arrive.


The continuation of this article can be seen in next month’s issue.  For the following series of recipes, Xander has decided to stick with classic taste.  This is part of an overall theme of keeping life simple.




Xander's Recipe of the Month

Waffle Worth the Wait

My mom has really found a joy in breakfast food since her strokes.  Trying to cook it fresh every morning has proven to be very time consuming.  However, I learned that with some things like these waffles, the batter can be done ahead for 1-3 day worth (keeping it in the fridge) and the quality doesn’t suffer, but saves a lot of time.





  • 2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 4 teaspoons baking powder
  • 2 tablespoons white sugar
  • 2 eggs
  • 1 1/2 cups warm milk
  • 1/3 cup butter, melted
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract



  1. In a large bowl, mix together flour, salt, baking powder and sugar; set aside. Preheat waffle iron to desired temperature.
  2. In a separate bowl, beat the eggs. Stir in the milk, butter and vanilla. Pour the milk mixture into the flour mixture; beat until blended.
  3. Ladle the batter into a preheated waffle iron. Cook the waffles until golden and crisp. Serve immediately.




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By Xander the Food Dude

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Angie BEE grew-up a standard-sized young woman, educated in communications, promotions and planning.  She became a wife, mother and ministry support member while building businesses and her faith.

Through stress, age and a poor diet and while suffering from major depression and attempted suicide, Angie BEE's weight climbed from 180 pounds to 360 pounds.  She was diagnosed with high blood pressure, diabetes, obstructive sleep apnea, an overactive bladder and poor leg circulation.  At the age of 40 an anxiety attack and the decline in her mental health forced her to stop work and look at improving her declining health.  It was during this time that Angie BEE became inspired by her younger sister Sonya Bennett during her process towards Gastric Bypass Surgery.  Sonya launched this column and will return occasionally to contribute to it, but now that she is three years-post surgery... her life is focused on something new!

Now, celebrating her first year of a new life since having the procedure herself, Angie BEE is healthier than she has been in over a decade.  Losing the first 100 pounds was just the bonus!  She is now diabetes-free.  She has normal blood pressure.  The circulation in her legs is normal.  She sleeps without a c-pap machine and more!  The joy that she feels is documented each day in her syndicated radio show, a brand new weekly  TV show documentary and each month in this article.  The Big GB stands for The BIG Gastric Bypass and it also stands for "Getting (my life) Back".  This article reflects how Angie BEE's life has improved... by the grace of God and as the result of having Gastric Bypass surgery on Feb 28, 2011.  This is now her life!


Large and Cleared to be in Charge!

with Angie Bee



There are times when you look at yourself and realize how strong and capable you really are.  I thank GOD that I felt this revelation on a couple of occasions just during this past week!  I looked at myself and I realized that I was stronger than I have been in YEARS and I am definitely IN CHARGE! Lemme tell you how MY week was!!!


I was invited to spend a week in Dayton, Ohio by Reverend Dawn Martin of Divas by Design Ministries.  The activities that were planned for me included a book-signing and speaking engagement before a group of women along with opportunities to present my experiences as a gastric bypass weight loss patient.  Although my book does not touch on the weight loss (the book was completed just prior to surgery), there is an understanding that when people see my book cover photo where I weighed nearly 400 pounds and they look at me now at 180 pounds smaller the topic arises.  When I share with audiences on how I lost the weight, they are surprised; but when I share with them how much healthier I am since the surgery, they are absolutely thrilled! 


So my story was shared during my book-signing event at the Women On Assignment event.  Rev. Dawn mentioned to the audience that she didn’t recognize me when I arrived.  She shared with the audience how I looked SO good since the weight loss and then I chimed in with the following crowd pleasers:


Since the weight loss, I can testify to: the reversal of Type II Diabetes,

The elimination of Obstructive Sleep Apnea,
No more overactive bladder,

Not another swollen ankle AND NO MORE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE!


The audience stood and cheered with applause, and then lined up for a hug and an autographed copy of the book.  Praise GOD!


That was how the week began.  Now, let me tell you about Day 2 of this week in Ohio! 


Reverend Dawn was an invited guest to the election tour stop pep rally featuring First Lady Michelle Obama.  She failed to mention to me that I was to be HER special guest and videographer at this event.  As she and I were escorted through the Secret Service scan and as the bomb-sniffing dog checked my camera bag and purse, I started to really smile to myself! I realized that I was not worried about prolonged standing (the media needed to arrive two hours prior to the First Lady’s arrival, and we stood the entire event!)  A gentleman handed me my official White House Press Pass and escorted me to the media platform where the TV news cameras were already stationed.  As I climbed the stairs to the platform, another smile emerged on my face.  I was climbing a flight of stairs without huffing and puffing!  I was climbing stairs without that high blood pressure headache banging my temple and I was climbing the stairs IN CHARGE of this production! 


Rev. Dawn introduced the viewers to our presence at the event and I shot more still and video footage than I have in over a year!  I shot freehand, without a tripod and I looked GOOD while I was doing it!  My pink dress was flattering and my hair was banging lol!  At one point before the arrival of the First Lady, someone in the audience looked up at the platform at me and said “You look too pretty to be a camera operator.  You should be in FRONT of the camera!”  Yep!  I know that I looked great and I did a great job shooting on that day!  The footage will be seen by viewers of the Jericho Broadcast Network on  When I weighed nearly 400 pounds, I would not have been able to accept this compliment due to my poor self esteem, but this week I embraced those words!


By the end of the week, Rev. Dawn was up to her old tricks again.  She told me that she had concert tickets for us to attend the Cincinnati Music Festival on Friday and Saturday nights.  The concert lineup included Eric Benet, Jaheim, The O’Jays, Charlie Wilson, The Temptations and more; I was excited!  The press passes were flashed upon our arrival and I was escorted to the press area.  I got the BEST photos and videos of these artists on stage!  I was so close to the stage that the sweat from Eddie Levert hit me on the forehead! 


I know that I could not have accomplished the activities of this week had I still suffered from the symptoms of my past illnesses.  I realize that I could have DONE everything because I was doing all these things even before the weight loss; the difference is that before the weight loss, I would have been running to the bathroom, I would have needed a chair because of my swollen ankles and I would have been checking my blood sugar every hour or two.  Now I can shoot for hours and still look fabulous LOL and I can take a trip for ministry and not be stressed about food or medicine. I can be in CHARGE of my life and my business while I continue to lose weight.  I am so happy now I just can’t describe it enough!


See you next month!




Angie BEE

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The Host of The Hottest Home Hotspot WORLDWIDE

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     Founded in 1969, NAAFA is a non-profit civil rights organization dedicated to improving the quality of life for fat people. NAAFA works to eliminate discrimination based on body size and provide fat people with the tools for self-empowerment through public education, advocacy, and member support.


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NAAFA 2012 Scholar Takes on The Biggest Loser!




NAAFA is pleased to announce that Natalie Ingraham, MPH has been selected as the 2012 NAAFA HAESsm Scholarship recipient. Natalie is a graduate student at University of California San Francisco (UCSF) pursuing her doctorate in Sociology. Her proposed research project is to conduct a critical content analysis of the television show, The Biggest Loser. The results will be compared against HAES principles in order to create and recommend possible policy changes with regards to body size and health.  To learn more about the HAES principles visit NAAFA’s website at:


"We commend Natalie for taking on The Biggest Loser, as we are very concerned about the impact it has on public policy, public opinion and its participants,” stated Lisa Tealer, NAAFA Board Member and Director of Programs.


Dr. Shari Dworkin, Associate Professor, Vice Chair and Director of Doctoral Studies in Medical Sociology at UCSF’s Department of Social and Behavior Sciences wrote in her letter of recommendation that, "Natalie has done very well in all research related tasks that she engages with and she shows a dedication and commitment to research that is refreshing and most welcome.”


Ingraham will receive a $1,000 scholarship from NAAFA to continue her graduate studies and research. She will be recognized at the NAAFA convention on Saturday, August 4, 2012 during NAAFA’s Annual Dinner held at the Westin San Francisco Airport Hotel in Millbrae, California. On Monday, August 6th at the NAAFA HAES Summit, Natalie will participate as a session panelist and present a poster of her research.


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Pat is a forty something woman living in Southern Ontario, Canada. She has a varied past and has worked teaching literacy and English as a second language to adults, as an environmental science technician and in the health and safety field. Currently she works in marketing.

Pat fiercely believes in human rights for all and has volunteered for organizations that raise funds and develop and implement programs to help impoverished people and educate women in third world countries. Although relatively new to the size acceptance movement, Pat believes with all her heart that people of size deserve equal treatment and respect.

In her spare time she likes to read fiction, go to bashes and spend time with friends.


Getting Physical...

with Pat Llewellyn


As part of my recovery I've been strongly encouraged to be more physically active. The idea is to give me a physical release for the pent up emotions. This has been a challenge for me. Not only because I'm depressed and lacking energy & desire, but because I have auto-immune diseases & my weight.


I was encouraged to start walking @ a brisk pace, but I find this boring & hard on my body. I started wracking my brain for things that I like to do & would be easier on my joints. Then it hit me.


I love the water. I went to the local YMCA & got a trial membership & tried water aerobics. Turns out I really like it. Getting motivated to go out is hard, but I found something I like which is half the battle.


I have a long way to go, but you have to celebrate the victories.




     Ms Suga is a plus size woman hailing from Sunny South Florida. She is a 24 year old recent recipient of a Bachelor in Arts degree in Communication Studies. Being plus size for the majority of her life she has overcome many obstacles to finally come to the point where she is fully content with herself and her life. This self love has also allowed Ms Suga the privilege of sharing her love with those around her. She is very passionate about life and loves to help others.

     Ms Suga likes to see herself as the one everyone can go to for positive, inspirational and truthful words of advice and/or support. She is the Beautiful Inspirational Girl that is blessed, intellectual, trustworthy, caring and hardworking.

     Ms Suga has had a passion for writing since she was a little girl when she used to think of short stories about what her life would be like as she got older. This is Ms Suga’s first opportunity for her thoughts to be public for the world to see. Excited about this column Ms Suga is also very optimistic of her future in writing and promoting self love and acceptance in the plus size community.


Starting Fresh

with Ms Suga



Greetings loves!! I must say that these past few weeks have been a trying and emotional time for Ms. Suga but you know what i don't regret any of it. I have learned and am continuing to learn new things about myself each and every day.


The summer is almost over and it's time for children and some adults to be going back to school. Its been a minute since I've had to sit in a classroom but trust me i do remember those days quiet well. The first day of school I was always nervous; worried about the classes and teachers and even if my

friends were still going to be my friends this term. I also remember thinking about the last day of school (talk about jumping the gun) and how much different we would be after a whole other school year, Kinda profound for a kid right? Nah I've been here before .


By the time i got to college I realized that every class is a challenge in itself but in the ending result is something no one can take from you. You come away knowing more than you did when you went in and that education is a beautiful thing. I read somewhere that challenges aren't so bad if you look at them as stepping stones and stumbling blocks.


Even If you aren't starting school I'm sure there is something going on in your life that equals a fresh start. That new weight loss program you started fits the bill. It may be difficult to make life changes but just remember the goal is to fit into those old jeans or to look slimmer in those wedding pictures. So eat that salad, do those crunches and drink that water you may not like it now but a better you is in the making.


That heartbreak you are currently going through (trust Ms. Suga knows all about broken hearts) know that something better is on the horizon. That man or woman who you think left you actually released you. For me I had to realize that in order to be the person I wanted and needed to be I had to let go of that man who wasn't ready for the same things I was. Also remember if you think something is wrong then it probably is something wrong. A lot of us (myself included) think that we can change people and that isn't the case. A fresh start might be just what you need to get you to your happiness.


I am encouraging you today to start fresh and look at things through a new set of eyes you will see your destiny clearer than ever before. You might not always have a map of the final destination but at least you can know if you are headed in the right direction.


~Ms. Suga~




Gabriela Falarz lives in Toronto, Canada. She has been up and down the scale for most of her life (mostly up), and is proud to say that she loves herself no matter what her size, although it has definitely been an evolution.


She blogs about size acceptance in her blog, Celebreight Yourself (  Gabriela discovered Large in Charge Radio about a year ago and has been hooked ever since. She is thrilled to be writing for Large in Charge and to be part of an organization that helps all large people realize how beautiful, special, and amazing they are.


Online Observations

with Gabriela Falarz




One thing I have noticed about being a member of Facebook ... you meet all kinds.


Another thing I've noticed is that young guys (mostly 20-somethings) seem to be fascinated with larger women.


I can't tell you how many times I've been online doing my own thing, checking statuses and email, or just goofing off and wasting time, when I hear that "blup" sound of a chat popping up at the bottom of my screen. Inevitably, it's some young guy I've never met who I friended at some time. He'll start off with something like "Hey, how ya doin" and gravitate to comments like "You are so so pretty" or "You are so gorgeous, I love your pictures" and I am honestly quite dumbfounded.


Where were these guys when I was IN my 20s? They were nowhere to be found. Yet now, here I am, a 40-something MILF (apparently) [for those of you who don't know, MILF means Mother I'd Love to F*#k], married with child, and I can't get rid of them. Well, I can, I guess ... I can block them. But they are mostly harmless (although one creepy guy tried to get me to send him a picture of my feet, lol) ... just lonely, shy, awkward guys who probably don't know how to approach women any other way than through the computer. And I have to admit it's quite ego-boosting and flattering to hear these guys tell me how beautiful they think I am (even though I'm usually twice their age and the online affairs they keep trying to entice me into simply aren't going to happen other than in their dreams). Whenever I tell them my age, though, it doesn't faze them one bit. "I love older women. I've always had a thing for them." Hmmmm.


Something about their outspoken admiration and appreciation screams "Mommy complex" to me, but I can't deny it's fun. Hey, my time as a sex object has been long overdue.



These guys who chat me keep telling me they love women with curves. I don't know if they realize I'm a hell of a lot more than that meek adjective "curvy" ... I'm one big curve that just keeps on going ... and I wonder exactly what they mean by that. Do they simply mean they like a little jiggle? Or do they truly appreciate a fat woman's rolls and dips and curves?


I don't know, but according to my husband, the whole MILF trend shows no sign of slowing down. Some of the most popular adult videos feature MILFs, I'm told, not to mention the vast array of BBW videos.


Diet companies, the fat-hating segment of society, and the medical establishment have done their best to try and make us feel like we're unattractive, unwanted, and sexless, but let me tell you ... a whole legion of guys out there obviously didn't get the memo ... and if you're a larger woman who's a member of Facebook or any other social network, you've doubtless received no shortage of men who want to chat you.


Of course, there are just as many of these guys who are simply players or outright psychos, and you need to be careful who you talk to ... but I don't see anything wrong with a little harmless flirtation. The only problem is ... I waste way too much time on Facebook!





Kathy is originally from a small town in Michigan but has lived in San Diego County since she's been 18 years old.  Kathy graduated from San Diego State University with a Bachelors in Finance in 1999.   She has a real estate broker’s license and works as a mortgage banker.  


Kathy also owns BBW Club Catalina in San Diego which has monthly night club parties and other fun events on a frequent basis.  Kathy has been an avid supporter of NAAFA, Vegas BBW Bash and San Diego BBW Bash and believes in size acceptance and health at every size.  


Kathy is a firm believer that people need to have a full life by going to the movies, dinner, bowling, dancing and anything that will make them a happier person and not wait till they are at the perfect size to start living their life to the fullest. 


Kathy is in her mid-40's and her children are grown and living productively on their own.   In her spare time she likes trying new restaurants, dancing, modeling, bowling and spending time with family and friends.



Dating in an interracial relationship...he's dating you but will he marry you?

 with Kathy Hernandez



Interracial dating has become more and more accepted in the past 40 to 50 years especially considering that in 1967 it was still illegal to marry someone of a different race.  This law was no longer in effect after winning the Loving vs Commonwealth of Virginia when a white man married a black woman.   I can't imagine being told I can't marry someone because we weren't of the same race and 1967 was the year that I was born so it really wasn't that long ago when it was illegal to fall in love with someone of a different skin color. 


There are a lot more interracial couples dating today as we can see them out on a daily basis but how many of these interracial couples who are dating actually get married and live happily ever after?  I have personally seen many black men date all other races but when it comes to marriage they have openly said that they do not want mixed children and didn't feel their families would be happy if they married a woman who wasn't black.   This particular male black friend of mine who said that he didn't want mixed children and that was the reason why he wouldn't marry my friend who was Hispanic made me laugh because how many black men do you know in the United States that aren't mixed with some other nationality??  Also I pointed out to him that he was one of the lighter skinned black men that I know  so how did he think he wasn't mixed already with another race and he just said he wanted a black woman as a wife but he was ok with dating women of other races.  


I have another friend who also said he will date women of all races but he felt most comfortable in marrying black women which he had done twice already.   I used to think before having conversations with these two male friends of mine that the Caucasian of the relationship would feel more pressure from marrying someone of color but it seems to me that it is about the same on each side because of peer pressure and pressure from close family relatives to marry within our own race.  I wonder if interracial couples weren't given such a hard time from friends and relatives about dating someone of a different race if more of these couples would have gotten married?   Think about what the pressure was like to even date someone of a different color 30 or 40 years ago compared to it being a lot more accepted today.   


When I was a child I was told if I married someone that was black that I would be disinherited... can you believe that?   When I was in my early 20's I used to babysit my friends son when he was 5 or 6 years old because there was a few hours between the time she had to go to work and her mother got off from work.  


One particular day I decided to take Marco to the mall to buy him a toy which I did frequently as I didn't have any children yet so I loved spending time with him.   Marco was mixed with black and Puerto Rican and yes he was the cutest little boy but when we were at the mall this day there were a couple of older white women sitting on the mall bench as we were walking by which I didn't notice them right away but Marco did because he grabbed my hand and said  "come on mommy let's go home"  and all I could think is why did he call me mommy?   It turns out these older white women were commenting on me having a black child so he decided to irritate them even more by holding my hand and calling me mommy.  I heard one of the older white women say "what is the world coming to?"  and looked at both of us with disgust.   I just smiled at them both and said hello how are you?    Marco was 5  or 6 years old and could feel the stigma and pressure of being associated with a white woman just because these older white women thought we were mother and son.  


According to the census bureau marriages between a black and white person represent less than one percent of total marriages but Asians, Hispanics and Native Americans marry outside their ethnic group on an average of 30 to 40 percent of the time.    I'm currently engaged to a man who is black and we have discussed how his family and friends would react to our getting married.   I know my sisters just want me to be happy and don't care what the color of David's skin is but I also know that some of my other relatives will be very  unhappy to find out that I'm marrying a black man.  David told me that his sister is married to a white man and his family doesn't seem to have a problem with their marriage at all.  


I'm not as naive to think that everyone will be happy for us but I am so glad that the year isn't before 1967 where I wouldn't have the option to marry the love of my life just because his skin color differs from mine.





Celebrating almost 2 decades as a Graphic Designer/Published Illustrator, Jean Nerestant Jr (Jness) got his start as a graphic artist in 1994, Still working as a graphic designer by day/ Jness devotes time to his hip hop Culture, comic book art and Plus size/BBW Art.



How You View Yourself?

with Jness


In the midst of my travels and conversations I have drawn one conclusion about people of size and all people in general. The philosophy is very simple, What you tell yourself about yourself ultimately becomes your reality. Whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing. If you reinforce it daily, it becomes a part of your thinking.


That is the reason I have made the choice to do the type of art that I do, I believe it causes people to see themselves differently. If they look at the plus size images I create and identify with the image, my thought process is that the positive and empowering aspects in the image will also become a part of how they view themselves. When I get feedback from the people who view my work, it’s very exciting to hear that the goals of my mission are working.


The human spirit is in turmoil because all to often you have people feeling, believing and thinking they are less than they are. The other demographic consists of people who make it their common practice to make people feel that way. I remember when I was a child the Nuns in Catholic school always drilled this expression into our heads. “If you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all.” I know it sounds like a very elementary concept, but there is such a valuable ethic there. If we took the time to pour positive things into each other - attitudes would change, as well as the quality of individual character. The world is so full of what I call “Surface dwellers” people who are satisfied with what is at the top of the water. “What you see is what you get” I consider myself among those who aren’t satisfied with the first glance. We want to go deeper look beneath the surface and discover the real fiber.  People are content with making assumptions about others, and catering to stereotypes. A little bit of communication would quickly reveal that individuals are not easily placed into cookie cutter molds. Just because a person is full figured doesn’t means they are weak. It doesn’t means they don’t have feelings, or that they are placed here to be victims of verbal abuse and jokes.


I am careful when developing the concepts are expressed in my artwork.  I don’t every want my work associated with any negative images. The media is full of enough images that cause people to feel like there is an existing standard that they will never fit into. How we look can no longer be a stumbling block for how far we can get in life. Sure we can do things to change the way we look, but we should always be mindful that those things do not define who we are. We define who we are. In the morning before facing the challenges of the day we should speak words of affirmation. Speak the positive words that become the blueprint for the directions our footsteps will take. These are the footsteps that will lead us to success, spiritual, and mental health. Don’t worry about how others view you. What’s important is how you view yourself.




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